Sometimes I just feel like I'm waiting for my life to take on meaning or to have a bigger purpose...Like I'm waiting to Exist...
Let me explain, most of my friends have kids and seeing them pour into their children day after day looks so rewarding, so selfless, so NOT what I have right now.
My hearts desire is to one day be a mother, and pour my life into another. Every month is so hard for me, when I realize I am indeed still without child...
Each month that passes is another failure in my eyes...This desire I have is from the Lord, yet why can't I get pregnant??
I do understand that the Lord has His perfect timing...but I just feel so down and so ignored. I know that no one has an "answer" for me, and I 'm not looking for one, just an opportunity to vent my feelings, and let you know where my heart is at.
I'm sad, I'm not pregnant, and I just feel plain down...
I'm waiting to Exist
Jeremiah 29:11 The Message I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.
Philippians 4:8-9
whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
2 comments:
I lost my baby a year and a half ago and have been trying again for a year. I understand what you are going through. Every month is so hard. people are getting prego all around me... God is faithful and he will give us the desires of our hearts in his time. I just wanted you to know you are not alone in this hurt.
Thank you so much Amber for your encouragement!!! You are not alone either in your struggles and desires...I needed to be reminded that God is faithful..I will be praying for you, please pray for me too...I'm so sorry for your loss, but as you said He will give us the desires of our hearts...and His timing is PERFECT!!!
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