Another Mothers day has past, and yet again I am unable to celebrate with the masses. If you know me at all, you know the desire of my heart is to be a mother...
I have wanted this as long as I can remember...
This Mothers day was harder for me than others past, I'm not sure why but my heart was so heavy with desire and disappointment. I found myself admiring my mom for all her hard work for us kids, and being jealous of the "mom club".
I kept praying and asking God why...why not me, why can everyone else be blessed with this gift??
I have no answer yet, but I do know that Gods timing is certainly NOT mine. His ways are better than mine, and I know HE has His hand on my life..He knows the desires of my heart, and He also knows how much I can handle.
He (God) also knows how much my heart hurts when I see a pregnant woman, and the loss I feel. He will also lead me through this too.
I am encouraged because God is all-knowing!
I will continue to pray, I will continue to seek the Lord, and I will continue to "try" :) (heheheh), please pray me through this sensitive time in my life.
I will soon be going to the Doctors to start seeking "other options" to help
Jeremiah 29:11 The Message I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.
Philippians 4:8-9
whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
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Carey, My Joy,
I'm sorry I wasn't more sensitive to you about M-day. I love you and will be praying for you and Travis for God's best and his timing.
You know I hurt with you and I experience your joys, too. That's what being your mom is all about. When you have your own daughter or son, you'll see. So for now I will share your longing and your fears and worries.
I love you.
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