Feeling "healthy"

Travis and I decided to make a change in our eating habits!! We both feel it is long overdue and necessary to ease into the next "season" of our lives.
We don't like to say "diet" so we are just changing the way we eat...Better choices, and more knowledge of what is going into our bodies. We now (for the last 6 months) shop at Fresh & Easy..their food has no preservatives and most of it is organic...
I'm am officially a humus addict!!

Maybe its part of my control issues, but it really makes me feel better being able to read the labels and understand exactly what the ingredients are...So with that being said, for the last 2 weeks we have elimated sugar and most processed foods from our meals, drinking only diet soda and water, and trying to at least get 30 minutes of movement in per day.

We both feel a whole lot better!!!! Not sluggish or bloated from eating in excess, but its been a little hard limiting our options of food. I am so proud of us though for really sticking to it, yes I am aware its only been 2 weeks, but for us that is really GREAT!! Yay!!

See dad, I'm not crazy...just sugar deprived....!!!!!

Badmington Re-Match!!!

The neighbor kids came over last weekend, and we all played badmington in our back yard...Girls vs Boys...
GIRLS WON!!!!! It was so nice to just play a few games, and see the smiles on their faces, as well as ours!!
Marissa and I made up a little dance to go with our victory!!!!!
Travis and Mason have challenged us to a re-match...

A little investment of our time was all it took, and hey, we even had fun doing it!!
Re-match is on for this weekend, I'll let you know how it goes!!:)

Thank you!

Last week was so hard for me, BUT

Thank you to those of you that prayed for me last week, and called or encouraged me..I'm so thankful for friends that can mourn with me & laugh with me!!
If you read my previous blog, you know that I was hurting....Well, I still hurt however, my spirit is being renewed daily with the hope that God is in control, NOT ME...
This brings me comfort knowing that He has ultimate control, not some test or some pill, or counting method...HE IS IN CONTROL!!!!!
The Lord knows the desires of my heart, and I pray I can continue to leave my desires at His feet, and learn to trust Him with my most intimate thoughts, desires, and struggles...The Lord knows me better than anyone, so I will trust in His perfect timing.

I know in 3 weeks I will have another hard week, but just knowing that others are in this with me and I'm not alone is sometimes just enough to keep going...

Waiting to Exist

Sometimes I just feel like I'm waiting for my life to take on meaning or to have a bigger purpose...Like I'm waiting to Exist...
Let me explain, most of my friends have kids and seeing them pour into their children day after day looks so rewarding, so selfless, so NOT what I have right now.
My hearts desire is to one day be a mother, and pour my life into another. Every month is so hard for me, when I realize I am indeed still without child...
Each month that passes is another failure in my eyes...This desire I have is from the Lord, yet why can't I get pregnant??

I do understand that the Lord has His perfect timing...but I just feel so down and so ignored. I know that no one has an "answer" for me, and I 'm not looking for one, just an opportunity to vent my feelings, and let you know where my heart is at.

I'm sad, I'm not pregnant, and I just feel plain down...
I'm waiting to Exist

Happy Birthday Bec!!!!

There will always be certain people in my life...family, my husband, and Becky!!! Bec, you have been such a good friend to me for the last 15 years, you have blessed me in ways beyond comprehension, you have cried, laughed, snorted and peed your pants right along side me... You have snuck into new construction, and hide from the world with me, you have embraced my strengths, my weaknesses and sharpened my spirit.
Our friendship has not been without turbulence, but we have fought for each other and forgave one another, Our friendship is one worth fighting for

Thank you for always being truthful with me, and for not having all the answers, I respect you & cherish the gift of friendship we possess...
Above all the for mentioned things, Bec, you constantly turn my head to the sky...you remind me of the one that matters most, and the one that loves beyond what we know..You remind me of His grace, His mercy, His forgiveness, His sense of humor!!

I am so blessed to have you in my life...

Yuck

Today is one of those days I wish I could just curl up in a corner & sleep or just let all my tears flow...
Please pray for me today, I want to be able to rely on the Lord and sift through all the feelings inside my head, and discern what is true, right, noble, and of the Lord.

Peace maker vs. Truth teller...

Does this dress make my butt look big?? Peace Maker "no, you look beautiful in whatever you wear"..VS Truth teller "Actually, I think this other dress would work better for your body type"...
Which one are you??
I find myself falling into catagory number 1: I am 70% Peace maker, 30% truth teller
I have no problem being 100% truth with Travis, but sometimes, I would rather keep the "peace" than just be truthful.....
I've come to realize that this is NOT the way to go...By not speaking the truth I am disobeying God...now don't misunderstand me, if the truth is NOT spoken in love, it can easily become just an opinion.

I have a few "truth tellers" in my life and I thank God for them..They keep me accountable (even when I don't realize I need it) and they encourage me...
My desire is to become a full-time Truth teller!!!

Lord, please give me the wisdom to disern what is true and from you, and help me to be a vessell of your truth.